I triggered last night and my egg retrieval is going to take place Tuesday morning. While I have lots of follicles, my E2 level is not as high as the number of follicles would indicate. Dr. House says this is not a bad thing, it just means that we will get fewer eggs than the number of follicles indicate. He's still projecting 8-12 eggs, which is a great number.
Maybe it is fear of the unknown since this is my first IVF, but I am not really excited. I am happy to be done with the injections and happy that one way or another this cycle will soon be over with but I can't say I feel excited. Maybe the thought of a pregnancy/baby is just so foreign that I can't grasp it. I don't feel like it's not going to work, but I'm not convinced it is going to work either. I guess I don't want to give myself a sense of false hope only to be disappointed.
If the IVF doesn't work I don't know if I'd do this again. For one, its been incredibly unpleasant. I've had so much discomfort from the growing follicles. I'm bloated and sore and miserable. Also, I don't wholly trust western medicine. It makes me nervous to manipulate my body in this way. I was willing to give it a shot, but to do this again and again....probably not within my comfort level. Not to mention it's a lot of money. Will Mr. Scout and I want to pay for more procedures when there is no guarantee of the outcome?
Anxious? Yes. Nervous? Yes. Hopeful? A little. Scared? Yes. Excited? Not really.
Maybe this is all just because I'm one big hormonal mess right now.
I think getting 8-12 eggs is pretty good. I hope things go well for you! Good luck!
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Stopping by from LFCA to welcome you to this amazing IF blogosphere! Sounds like a wonderful number, hope retrieval went well & you're feeling alright. Completely normal feelings when going through IVF, I remember being a ball of all kinds of emotions during that time. Sending lots of positive thoughts & vibes your way!
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