Eternal Optimist:
1. A person who never ceases to give up hope in something they believe.
2. A person who will continue to believe in something or a positive outcome till the end of time.
This is me. For me, "the glass is always half full." Mr. Scout thinks I see the world through rose-coloured glasses - all the time. I believe in the power of positive thinking. I believe thoughts influence outcomes.
But not today.
I feel like this IVF cycle didn't work. I don't know why. It scares me that I feel this way. What if feeling this way makes it true? Why do I feel this way? Was my response to the injections too good to be true and I don't want to get my hopes up? Is it a defence mechanism because this is supposed to be our greatest chance at getting pregnant and what if that doesn't happen? Am I scared that if it does work I'll lose the pregnancy again? Is it because in the infertile world it seems like success stories are so rare?
I hate feeling this way.
This is not me.
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