A Giant Step Forward

Gestation:  14 weeks
Weight:  101.6 lbs
Symptoms:  extreme fatigue, stuffy nose, hip pain

Mr. Scout is the worrier in our household.  Especially with this pregnancy.  He has been worrying about it from the beginning.  I worry too, but not all the time.  I have moments when I feel confident and comfortable and there is no doubt in my mind.  Mr. Scout has fewer of those moments.  I have had to tell him on a couple of occassions that his worrying is not helping me.  That he is creating bad karma in our house.  That I need him to think positive thoughts and send positive thoughts toward our little Cub Scout.  That I need him to try to think that everything will be ok, rather than think something will go wrong. 

He's getting better at it as time goes on.  And yesterday he made a giant step forward.  He came out to his colleagues at work and told them we are expecting.  This is huge for him.  The first hurdle was telling family, which he did probably before he was ready.  Then he told friends shortly after.  But I never thought he would tell colleagues this early.  I'm so glad he has reached this level of comfort.  It's a joy to see the excitement start to creep in and his fear start to fade.  It helps to make this pregnancy more enjoyable for me.

I think seeing Cub Scout on the ultrasound screen last week was probably the first time that this pregnancy felt really real to Mr. Scout.  While I haven't enjoyed the physical changes of being pregnant, I forget that for Mr. Scout it's a completely different experience.  While I can't feel Cub Scout moving around, I know that s/he is in there and the changes to my body certainly remind me every day that I'm pregnant!  It's much less tangible for Mr. Scout and I've only just realized how truly fortunate I am to be able to have the experience of being pregnant.