A Little Feminist

I had an ultrasound yesterday at exactly 6 weeks pregnant.  A gestational sac and yolk sac were visible, but not the heartbeat.  I was told ahead of time that it might be too early to see the heartbeat.  I'm not worried.  I am confident I will see that little heartbeat at next week's ultrasound.

Mr. Scout said yesterday he has a feeling our little Cub Scout is a girl.  I've had the same feeling.  However on my part it is probably more wishful thinking than a feeling.  There are many reasons I want to have a daughter.  Amongst them, I had an amazing relationship with my maternal grandmother and I miss her daily.  I would love to have a little girl that I can name after my grandmother.  I would love to have a little girl and watch her develop a relationship with my mom like I had with my grandmother.  Not to mention, I think women are amazing beings and I would love to raise a little feminist :) 

I recently read the following on thefeministbreeder.com/ blog and all the things she wrote are more reasons why I would love a little girl:

Without a Daughter:

• I’ll never be the mother of a bride.
• I’ll never watch one of my children grow a baby.
• I’ll never watch one of my children breastfeed a baby.
• I’ll never share my wisdom of womanhood with someone who has similar parts as mine.
• I’ll never get to see what another female with my DNA would look like.
• I’ll never get to be a mother to a female who breaks down barriers.
• My husband will never walk a daughter down the aisle.

The list goes on and on.  Maybe one of my kids will marry a girl who I can relate to on these issues, but get real – how many women want their Mother-In-Law to see them give birth?  How many want their Mother-In-Law to help them pick out a wedding dress? 

I have an wonderful relationship with my mom and my aunt.  When my grandmother was alive and the four of us were together it was simply amazing.  I want a little girl to join our clan and share the relationship and bond I have with my mom and my aunt.

That's a lot of pressure eh?  If this little Cub Scout is a boy, no doubt I will love and adore him.  But I would be lying if I said I didn't have a preference for a daughter.  I know a lot of people would say that I should just be happy to have a healthy baby, and I will.  And perhaps people will think it is too early in the pregnancy to be having thoughts like this.  But I won't apologize for having a preference.  Judge me all you want, but that's my truth.