How Things Change

Last post I was writing about how I had nothing really to worry about....

Now, that's changed.

It seems I have a "low" placenta.  Which I'm told is not uncommon.  I'm also told that in the majority of cases the placenta moves up as the baby grows.  I was put on pelvic rest as a precaution. That means no exercise and no lifting.  I'm told not to worry about it, and mostly I haven't.

It also seems I have a cyst on my left ovary.  Again I'm told it is not uncommon.  I'm also told that it can go away on it's own.  It hasn't caused me any pain, which is good.   However if I do start to experience a stabbing pain that doesn't go away then I am to call the midwife.  I've also been told not to worry about this, and mostly I haven't.

And, it seems I have a subchorionic bleed/hematoma.  Once again, I'm told it is not uncommon.  And I'm told that it can be re-abosrbed by my body and disappear.  I haven't had any spotting or bleeding this pregnancy, which is good.  If spotting/bleeding develops then I need to call my midwife.  Don't worry about this I'm told, but I confess I have, a little.

And if those three 'minor' conditions weren't enough for an infertile to deal with I've got another bigger health concern that is causing me worry, as hard as I try not to worry.  A nodule was disovered on the right side of my thyroid.  I've learned through my own research that nodules are not uncommon.  I've also learned that most nodules are benign.  However, my nodule has microcalcification.  Microcalcification, according to my internet research, is more commonly associated with malignant tissue.  Malignant, aka, Cancer.  Add to that a strong family history of thyroid diseases and my risk factor shoots way up. 

A biopsy has been scheduled.  It cannot come soon enough.  I need to know, one way or the other, what I'm dealing with.  And how would one deal with a Cancer diagnosis during pregnancy??  As if a Cancer diagnosis on its own wouldn't be bad enough, but throw in a pregnancy and already being a mother to a toddler and it becomes unbearable to even think about.

Really universe??  It wasn't enough that I struggled to get pregnant, you had to throw this shit at me too??  Thanks.  Thanks a lot.