I'm sure all pregnant women who have struggled with IF come to a point when they reflect back on where they were in the months preceeding pregnancy. Today that happened for me. Nothing in particular sparked my thoughts. I was simply on my way to work and got off at my usual bus stop. But in that moment I remembered that this time one year ago I would have not have gotten off at that stop, but kept going for a few more stops to go to the fertility clinic for cycle monitoring before heading into work.
Last year at this time I was having blood work and ultrasounds performed constantly. I was taking my basal body temperature every morning and charting it on a graph. I was working so dilligently to pinpoint ovulation so that we could try to conceive. My life was consumed with trying to get pregnant.
And now here I am, almost 29 weeks along, very visibly pregnant. This time last year I was filled with both hope and despair and I had no idea that IVF lay in my future. The struggle of those days is never far from my thoughts. What a difference a year can make.
Everyone tells me how much life is going to change with the arrival of Cub Scout and how hard it is going to be. I say, bring it on! I'm sure life will change, I'm sure being a parent will be the hardest thing I ever do, but I'm not scared of it - at least not today :P I consider it a miracle that I am pregnant. A miracle of science. I worked my ass off to get here and did things I never thought I would do. All I can do now is look forward to whatever challenges lie ahead when we become a family of three.
And a year from now....the future only knows!
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