30 weeks...

10 weeks to estimated arrival of Cub Scout!

Where has the time gone?  How can I be 30 weeks already?  How can there be only 10 weeks left until we're parents?? 

I'm soooo not ready.

I have so many things still to do - buy a crib, buy a mattress, buy a stroller, decorate a nursery, gather all the things I need for a homebirth, pack a hospital bag just in case, have a baby shower, get my house in order....I need more time!

A Year in the Life

I'm sure all pregnant women who have struggled with IF come to a point when they reflect back on where they were in the months preceeding pregnancy.  Today that happened for me.  Nothing in particular sparked my thoughts.  I was simply on my way to work and got off at my usual bus stop.  But in that moment I remembered that this time one year ago I would have not have gotten off at that stop, but kept going for a few more stops to go to the fertility clinic for cycle monitoring before heading into work.

Last year at this time I was having blood work and ultrasounds performed constantly.  I was taking my basal body temperature every morning and charting it on a graph.  I was working so dilligently to pinpoint ovulation so that we could try to conceive.  My life was consumed with trying to get pregnant.

And now here I am, almost 29 weeks along, very visibly pregnant.  This time last year I was filled with both hope and despair and I had no idea that IVF lay in my future.  The struggle of those days is never far from my thoughts.  What a difference a year can make.

Everyone tells me how much life is going to change with the arrival of Cub Scout and how hard it is going to be.  I say, bring it on!  I'm sure life will change, I'm sure being a parent will be the hardest thing I ever do, but I'm not scared of it - at least not today :P  I consider it a miracle that I am pregnant.  A miracle of science.  I worked my ass off to get here and did things I never thought I would do.  All I can do now is look forward to whatever challenges lie ahead when we become a family of three.

And a year from now....the future only knows!

Week 28 - Everything I Want to Remember

How far along:  28 weeks 2 days 

Total weight gain/loss:  Up 19 lbs. (Current weight = 117 lbs)

Maternity clothes:  I wish I had more.  I'm getting tired of wearing the same things over and over again but I can't justify purchasing more.  I have a few maternity dresses with tags still on them that I'm waiting to wear...if it only the weather would warm up!

Stretch marks:  None (Thank God)

Sleep:  Still sucks

Movement:  Movements are noticeably stronger these days.  A couple of nights I've had to ask Cub Scout to "keep it down in there" so I could fall asleep.  Cub Scout seems to have changed position finally and according to my midwife is now head down.

Cravings:  Oh, how I would love a nice glass of red wine :(

Aversions:  None

Gender:  A little man

Symptoms:  Back pain and more back pain

What I miss:  My free time...while it's not gone yet, I know it's days are numbered

What I look forward to:  Seeing what Cub Scout looks like!

Moods:  Grateful for this experience

Milestones:  I'm in my THIRD TRIMESTER!    How did that happen so fast???? 

Medical Concerns:  None

Weekly Wisdom:  I'm not feeling very wise this week

Worst moment this week:  Feeling my energy start to fade away.  The second trimester burst of energy now seems so short-lived
Best moment this week:  Learning that I passed my glucose screening test