Growing Up

Cub Scout's daycare has webcams.  Which means I can look at him anytime throughout the day....which I do...perhaps too much :)  Ok, definitely too much.  But how can I not?  My little man is away from me all day long and I miss him so much and here's this camera into his world...

I watch him at daycare and realize he's growing up.  My heart both melts and breaks at the same time.  It's bittersweet.  It's wonderful to see your child grow and learn new things and become more independent but at the same time it reminds you how fast the time is going, how one day he won't need mommy to wipe his nose or hold his hand.  I want to hold on to each stage/age and not let go.  I will miss the days when Cub Scout says "mommy, hug" and wraps his arms around my neck and presses his cheek against mine.  I will miss when he says "mommy, hand" and reaches his little hand out to hold mine.  I will miss all those moments when I get to give hugs and kisses and he doesn't push me away.  I will miss cuddling him in my lap.  I want to hold on to these moments forever yet I feel them slipping away.

Even though we'll be welcoming baby #2 into our family in October and I'll get to experience it all again I will still miss those moments with my first born as he continues to grow up.

There really is nothing in the world that compares to the experience of having a child.  I am truly blessed.  I had no idea this little man would steal my heart the way he has.

Week 30 - Everything I Want to Remember

How far along:  30 weeks 
Total weight gain/loss: Current weight = 118 lbs

Maternity clothes: Of course. And still wearing some loose, flowly non-maternity clothes

Stretch marks: None

Sleep: Meh.  Still waking up at night to pee and now getting killer leg cramps again - almost nightly

Movement:  Decreased a little. I suspect there's less room in there for her to move around. 

Cravings: Sweet stuff

Aversions: Curries/Indian food - but not as bad as previous.  Mr. Scout and I ordered in Indian food one night last week and I was able to eat it.  I didn't enjoy it as much as I usually would though.

Gender: A little feminist

Symptoms: Pelvic pressure, increasing back pain - especially after sitting at my desk all day

What I miss: I want to say sleep but I know that once baby girl arrives I will be begging for the kind of sleep I'm getting now

What I look forward to: Seeing her for the first time and seeing how Cub Scout reacts to her

Moods: Grateful that I get to experience this twice. Trying to be appreciate every feeling knowing it will very likely be the last time I am ever pregnant

Milestones: I'm in my 7th month and final trimester

Medical Concerns: None.  At last ultrasound to measure growth I was informed that this baby is measuring large - 86th percentile and was already 3 lbs!  Never thought I'd be able to make a large baby!  My weight gain is the same this pregnancy as last one so we'll have to wait and see if she comes out bigger than her brother.

Weekly Wisdom: Continue to appreciate being pregnant - enjoy this time - it goes by too fast!

Worst moment this week: One day of really bad back pain that forced me to leave work a bit early and generally feeling very pregnant and less mobile
Best moment this week: Every time Cub Scout says "kiss the belly" then kisses my belly - my heart swells :)