How different and how much the same pregnancy is this time around.
Different in the sense that I am not in complete and utter shock every single day that I'm pregnant. The first time I don't think there was a single second of the day when I wasn't conscious of the fact that I was pregnant. This time around, I am aware most of the time that I'm pregnant, but there are moments when there's not even a thought in my head that I'm pregnant. I was obsessed last time but this time it doesn't seem like it's even happening. Weird eh?
Having said that, much is the same with this pregnancy. There's the little nagging fear in the back of my head - that 'what if'?' So far it's been an uneventful pregnancy so there is nothing for me to worry about. But dealing with IF means you always worry I think.
This time, I'm still counting down to something. I was counting down to the first ultrasound and seeing the heartbeat. Counting down to my first appointment with my midwife. Counting down to when I can stop the progesterone suppositories. Counting down to the end of the first trimester. Each event that I can check off the calendar lets me exhale a bit.
Last time I paid a lot of attention to what I ate because it was nourishing my growing baby. This time I'm not as obsessive about it. Not for lack of caring or wanting to eat well, but mostly due to lack of time or energy to plan meals and snacks. Being pregnant with a toddler running around the house leaves not much time for indulging in pregnancy-related obsessions :)
I wonder how it will be parenting baby #2 vs. baby #1? ;)
March 27, 2013
March 5, 2013
One Little Heartbeat
I had an ultrasound yesterday (at 6w3d) and saw one little heartbeat. And then I exhaled. I exhaled to see the heartbeat and know that things seem to progressing as they should and I also exhaled to see that it was just one. I was terrified of multiples. I am always surprised when people get excited over twins. Babies are a LOT of work. Toddlers are even MORE work. Why would I want TWO at the same time in addition to the ball-of-energy toddler I currently have? I love the idea of three children, but not twins. I was perfectly happy to see just one tiny perfect little heartbeat.
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